The ESP Guitar Company

This is where we put him in the oven for the big hippo initiation party.

I realize I'm going to be the asshole in this equation. Do you like badmouthing your family,  because I don't. I don't have friends or a social group to talk about things. So when somebody SEEMS to be talking some passive agressive shit in private, NOONE hears it.

My sister is probably worried about her reputation with the church.

Im speaking facts that some family doesnt like.

I'm not sorry for their hypervigilance over the things i say to people online OR OFFLINE. they could be talking a gang of shit about me 365 days a year behind my back and I'm not obsessively hacking their crap to make sure people aren't speaking facts about me. 

I'd be thrown in jail if I tried to get away with the crap they get away with.

Why tf are they immune? Because church gives them immunity from arrest or from punishment for predatory behavior, violating laws and boundaries with some because G*d arguement or defense....stalking, premeditating on tactics to attack or entrap their victims or the person they prey upon.....?

They stalk people. I dont.

they eavesdrop and premeditate. I don't. 

They disrespect boundaries. I dont. 

and somehow they're scared of me.

why?

What did they do that makes them think i would attack somebody ? Something nice or something evil they did.. or are doing to me....

Why do they think I would attack them for no reason or without somebody provoking it out of me so they can villianize me, destroy my own character, and call me the bad guy and calling themselves a victim.

If they are worried about the things I say to people then they should stop giving me reasons to talk about my family problems.

Whether they like it or not, im not playing dead or faking my death so stop trying to erase my name and persona from existence on social media. Sister doesn't need to be telling her mother in law or her husband about my Facebook profile.

I'd be punished for the things they do. And they are placed above me in some goddamn pecking order.

That's bad for me, and my health, and my safety.

What's going on? What's bothering you?

It's not as easy as cut and dry trying to explain why I'm not in a good mood.

I'm not going to glorify anybody. Period . I'm not some fraternity or sorority pledge at the setian river-pig grotto.

Place me at the bottom and beneath literally everybodys feet and expecting me to kiss their ass....get bent.

I'm already at the bottom and not ascending to any rank above or respect from other people. I lift myself up since my famly as well as everybody else in the world doesn't.

Sick of apologizing when they never do.

Sick of apologies that dont mean shit. Sick of their actions not showing their apologies.

Sick of this piss addict feeding on my words.

I dont want your bullshit savior's help. They need to stop needing me to place a crown on their fucking heads so they can feel important, pull rank, and keep talking down about me.

I DONT HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY TO YOU.

stop trying to sodomize words out of me and trying to piss me off for a response or attention.